As humans,we may get broken (physically, financially, mentally, emotionally, and/or spiritually). The physical and the materialistic aspects that are mentioned may be out of the range of our own control-meaning it may or may not get fixed. But our spirit(the drive that brings the mind and the heart to life) is eternal and we have a control over it, we are responsible for our actions and reactions… as it gets broken, if we try hard, we can actually get stronger and much better than when we were before the break.
All of a sudden, I felt I maybe ready to face my grieve after seven years of stonewalling and a front of evasive strength. See, I have built me, out of grieve, a huge wall which behind it stood a horror beyond my comprehension. Every time I feel that somewhere this monster is breaking a brick at this wall, I take a peak only to be appall by dark waves of sadness more than I can bear, so I quickly close that burning hole and put back that brick.
But grieve, like Gog and Magog, persistently hammer through the wall and eventually will break it to crumble- only to sweep me someday with an overwhelming emotions.
You know what… I think I am not ready yet. Since I am still going around and round the subject instead of facing it head on.
Maybe another time. For now… I will let the wall stand.